One of the great things about faith is the fact that its up for debate. Faith is an abstract concept that each of us makes our own by using the right vocabulary that makes sense to us. Faith doesn’t care about semantics. It only cares that you believe.
At a recent sermon that Joy and I attended the pastor spoke passionately about lies in our lives that we have come to believe. One of the bigger lies he mentioned was on worthlessness. The idea that a person belives that they do not deserve the people, ideas, and momentos they have surrounded themselves with.
The pastor went on to say that these are lies that Satan has implanted in our minds. Now, I wasn’t rasied in a Christian household with regular Sunday trips.
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I came into faith using my own thoughts and ideas. Some of them were inspired and even correlate with the Christian religion, but there are also differing points of view.
One of which is the idea of Satan in my life. I have come to understand that good and evil, light and dark, up and down, forward and backward are ideas that simultaneously co-exist within our souls.
You can no more eradicate evil than you can good from your life, but you can choose which way your needle will fall when making life decisions.
I have fallen prey to the idea of worthlessness more than once. The idea that I’m not even worthy enough to write down these words has occured to me as I’m typing them. It might seem strange given my personality, but you are not the only one who knows how to put on a mask.
For me the negativity that courses through my soul is there to give me balance. I’m must think negative thoughts, if only for a second, so that I can realize that is not the way I want my life to turn out. To consider the evil choice is to give more precednence to the good one. Unfortunately, I have not always listened to my better judgement and the needle has pointed to a negative aspect.
Then I am left in a trap of my own doing and not by some outside force that is easily labeled as Satan. With this realized getting myself to feel worthy again takes a little doing.
I have recently let these feelings creep into my life again. And I’m left sitting on the couch, with the T.V. off, trying to figure out what went wrong. Where did this come from? Can I get out? Is it even worth it to get out? Won’t I just end up here again?
I feel like I have pin pointed one of the roots causes that sent me into this spiral to begin with. I have been putting so much into my studies and my family/home life that I have been neglecting the very thing that needs attention, myself. I am the very foundation for everything I interact with. If that is crumbling therefore everything I have built of this one block will come crashing down around me.
So, here I am doing something that adds worth and value to my life. I am writing. It is what has proven, to me, to raise me out of the depths of worthlessness. I have penned poems that made me smile and blogs that I didn’t even know I had inside of me. It is a ladder when I desperately need one.
I wish I could tell you what your ladder is. That all you have to do is X,Y, and Z. But I can’t. You are the one that has to tell you that. I can give you a couple of hints. Whatever your ladder out of worthlessness is it will be something that adds value not only to yourself, but to society as a whole.
I can honestly say that needlessly spending money, playing video games, or watching T.V. and movies are not what you are looking for unless its for some academic research that you intend to publish.
Your actions will influence those around you to either positivity, thought provocation, or an aesthetic decoration that soothes. We were all meant to add something great to this world and if you haven’t found it yet then getting your ladder assembled and getting out of the pit of worthlessness will be a bit of a challenge.
Yet, when you find it the light inside your chest will begin to glow bright enough to attract all to your discovery.
Worthlessness is not a state of permanence, but a chance to find the inner light that will guide your positivity.
Thanks for reading,